As you are..

As you are greater than the sunlight, you brighten up my days and make me shine.

Your transmutation of the unknown to norms is becoming to be too troublesome for me. I try to keep a leveled head and heart. Trying not to leap to an endless pit of doom.

As I am most incapable of staying straight-headed, I am saying to you (not directly though) that as you are indifferent, I am troubled and hopeless.

The rain will come with most haste to wash away this sad face.

With water cleaner that of the water that flow from the spring.

Colder than of the ice melted from the mountains.

It will cleanse my heart and my soul.

Public enemy no.1

The dream ends here.

It was not wasted time. I find myself wanting to wake up from this illusion.

A quote from a movie I watched said that "Love is an Illusion". Sometimes it is. I would like to rephrase it so that it would make more sense. Well, for me anyway.

Love sometimes in just an Illusion.

It is like being in a dream. When even love is an illusion. Concocted by irrational thoughts not made concrete by action. If you get what I mean.

It was very funny to wake up in a reality better than a dream. Maybe it's you all along. We can never really tell. I can never tell. And so, I'm taking a chance again on something that may end up being an illusion. But, nonetheless, life is always full of surprises. I take joy in the thrill. the surprise.

So, here is the tricky part. Moving on from nothing.

I'm now laughing at myself. I thought that this was never going to happen again. But alas! History repeated itself. But. I will not repeat the unnecessary to reduce collateral.

It's so hard to never know. Harder if you would be given a chance to know and yet you let it pass. But, I listened to my inner being. I always end up listening to that little voice in my head. That little voice that kept me in-check for all these years. And so, I'm thankful for that voice. I know it's You.

Learning from what ever this is/was, I am now making a pact with myself. I know what to and what not to do. The future is too vague and full of surprises. So, take I will take delight in it this what life has given me. I know I will. I blame my rationality and my consistencies.

Moonlit Dreams

Many things come about at night. Sometimes it is the overwhelming epiphany you've been waiting for or a call of the person who melts your heart like butter on a hot knife. But tonight, it's not the case. It's still not the case. Even thought you want it to be.

Dreams. Let's talk about dreams.

It starts with you. Maybe sometimes, with me. But if I'm lucky it'll be one of those dreams where the impossible happens. That dream where you are in my arms. Knowing what I feel about you and you having the same feelings for me. I know it only happens sometimes but because of those times, I am always eager to fall asleep. Knowing that there is a chance that we will be together. in my dreams.

It was not my intention to make my first entry about you. But, I can't help myself. You still haunt my heart.

I hope you'll know it someday. These words are words of a stupid boy in love (or something like that). Always repeated but the meaning is never the same.